work

I don’t want to make it serious, and I haven’t. I still feel like things are under control, even though the ones I’m working with are all in silent mode. I’m not just talking about my club, but almost everyone I’m working with :)). Some people have told me that I’m too positive, too optimistic in front of trouble; but frankly, if I’m not being who I am like that, I might have gone crazy already. I cannot be tough enough to perform in any other ways, so I choose to stick with this.

I love team-working with my people (who are all very talented), love the fact that what they think helps me a lot to look at problems from different aspects. I’m curious to find out where I’m wrong and how the situation can be improved; I’m anxious about the completion of the tasks. I know if they are more active, things would go much more smoothly, and I may even turn into a silly person because my comments are full of mistakes =), but that I don’t really care. When I’m shown that I’m dumb, it means other people are saying the right things, and they are seriously exploring the problems. This is more important to me.

Aiss, I feel really awkward to remind people of what they have to do in the least extreme way, and even more awkward when they express their sorry for my words and what they did =). I’m more concerned about how people fix stuffs and change for the better than how they think they are. Considering love a kind of teamwork, I used to ‘beg’ my bf to stop saying sorry too much when he does st bad, because I think saying it is only procedural and once is enough :)). Again, that’s how I personally think, nobody is right or wrong in this :)).

One more problem: sometimes I dislike working alone. It makes me feel like I’m an introvert person. It’ll be much better if I have at least another person to discuss with.

meo

don’t know if I was shocked, happy or anything, but I admit it’s really great that you have found her. congratulations my friend : ). I know life will not treat you badly :P.

I just want to be good

If only I could find a peaceful place to shelter.

If only I could have a day off.

If only I could stop listening to emotional songs (for no reason).

If only I could tell all of my stories to somebody.

If only I could be stronger.

If only I could watch a good movie now.

If only I could be good.

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I’m not thinking too much. I’m just rambling about the things I want lately.

I don’t know

When my (girl) friend told me about that, I have to say I was confused. What she said has been occurring to me every now and then.

I don’t know what to do with this kind of thing, and I feel very bad about that. I don’t want to hurt anybody, including myself, but it’s just something I really love to have. Something so nice, adorable, warm and real.

I understand that I should not keep doing this, because no one is gonna be patient enough to hold my hands through its result. It just feels so terrible pushing it all away.

I’m off to sleep now.